i feel so weak lately...eating junkfood, not-sleeping and getting no idea...ok getting ideas but all the shootings we did last week were ...uhm...shit. i hated the results and wanted to delete it all. so much work and nothing goes right.
yes i am at the point asking me if i ever will be a good photographer cause other people of my age EARN Money...like...60 000 a year and i have nothing. not even on the bank. oh yes, minus at the bank. i am 25 and i want to be successfull. somehow.
i know you like my stuff here, but drops and so, that*s crap, that is not the photography the market asks for and it does not mean anything at all. i have some nice street shots and last night i browsed all my photos back to 2005 and i got the strong feeling that i was better last year. when i was just shooting for fun.
i need to get better or i will not earn money. my mum is worried anyway everbody said i was a good programmer and why i do not follow this profession. i need to prove them wrong.
have you been at that point? i feel depressed. i know i am just complaining and stuff, but what else do i have so say.
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[link]About the Photographerthis is the journal of 25-year old M.Hassold, currently absolving the first year of a 3-year-training as photographer. she is a professional computer-scientiest, and finished school with ABI in 2001 (Similar to Senior High School, with the possibilty to visit every College). She likes to draw from time to time, and most of all, she likes to watch things and take photos of everything she sees- as for her fav-shots of water and nature, you will find them here. she also takes analog shots and lomo-shots with one of her analog cameras. as for the diogital one, she uses the eos 350 d with the kit lens 18-50mm by sigma and 2 4-dioptries macrofilters.
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Lately I've been very demotivated, and I just have a hard time in being happy about my science and my art.
But if there is only one thing I can advice you is not to sell yourself to money. Give yourself to your believes, to your passions, to whatever you believe in, even if that belief is that you need to have a 'conventional' carrer. But NEVER give yourself to money. Money comes and goes, and at the end, it is not important, only what you've made of yourself, and what makes you truly happy.
One thing that many artists do is part their art in what lets them pay bills and what they like to do, and it usually works better than resigning to what they like.
Hop you feel better
kopf hoch, wird schon besser
Besides I'm sure your mother just wants to see you happy.
When I first joined this site, I had 0 watchers, but now i'm a lil over 20. So over time it gets better, and you learn more. Just never give up.